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How I Found Myself A Missionary in a Foreign Land, Learning A New Language

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Aalia william
How I Found Myself A Missionary in a Foreign Land, Learning A New Language

As my heart hardened over time, IThought Manifestation Review developed a twisted sense of God. Let's just say that I didn't believe that He was good, I didn't believe he loved me unconditionally, I didn't believe that he had my best interest in mind or wanted me to be happy; okay, let's just put it bluntly - He Was Out To Get Me! He was watching me like a hawk and when I did something that displeased Him, He was going to let the hammer fall!

So lets picture this together, and some of you might not have to imagine too hard because you are living a similar story. For 22 years I tried so hard to please God. I did not want to displease Him; I did not want His punishment! Now this didn't just apply to my relationship (or lack thereof) with God, but will all my relationships. What I found out was that I couldn't live up to the expectations I had built up in my mind to what others wanted and desired me to be. Twenty-two years I lived with guilt for not being perfect - performance equaled acceptance and love for me.

At some point you will be squashed by the weight of this burden, or you will rebel and prove that you are not perfect. So for the next 6 years, I rebelled against my parents, myself, and my God! So, for 28 years of my Christian life, I ran from Him all because I said "NO"!

 

 

 

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